Panic Attack
Maybe it's just a horrible by-product of the holiday season. Who knows. Who cares. The end result is all that matters. And my end result at this very moment is a depression that's rapidly approaching tears.
Does that make me sound like a goofball? Yeah. Probably.
Remember that chapter-by-chapter synopsis I was fighting with? Well, I finally sent it to two of my CPs for critiquing. Got the critiques back. And I've reached a conclusion based on those critiques.
I can't do this. I'm not wired properly for this stupid synopsis thing.
Hence, my depression.
I've sent out a post to all my CPs expressing the fact that since I can't do the synopsis thing, I've no hope of ever being published, so I'm just going to write, enjoy my writing, and quit stressing over the publication process.
I expect my mailbox will be filling with rah-rah, self-help, you-can-do-it posts.
The way I'm feeling right now, I'm not even sure that'll help.
I sure hope this is just because of the holidays.
Does that make me sound like a goofball? Yeah. Probably.
Remember that chapter-by-chapter synopsis I was fighting with? Well, I finally sent it to two of my CPs for critiquing. Got the critiques back. And I've reached a conclusion based on those critiques.
I can't do this. I'm not wired properly for this stupid synopsis thing.
Hence, my depression.
I've sent out a post to all my CPs expressing the fact that since I can't do the synopsis thing, I've no hope of ever being published, so I'm just going to write, enjoy my writing, and quit stressing over the publication process.
I expect my mailbox will be filling with rah-rah, self-help, you-can-do-it posts.
The way I'm feeling right now, I'm not even sure that'll help.
I sure hope this is just because of the holidays.
posted by Lynn at
2:52 PM
3 Comments:
Lynn - yes you can do this. Quit being so hard on yourself. Take one step at a time, even if you end up going two backwards. Take a deep breath and go. You can do it.
By
Kim, at 2:20 PM
Thanks, Teresa and Kim, for the comments. I do know that what I'm going through, this self-doubt, is not uncommon. And I know it's something I need to push beyond. I might manage that. Evenutally.
For now, I'll continue to write. I'm feeling a bit less Eeyore-ish right now. Could be because I haven't looked at that synopsis.
But I appreciate both of your kind thoughts.
By
Lynn, at 2:49 PM
Honey take heart. We have ALL cried over synopsis at some point. Okay not all, but I have. It took me three manuscripts to "get it" and I've never had to write a chapter-by-chapter one. Wait until after the holidays settle down and try again. Remember--they're about the big picture--I hope that helps hon!
((((lynn)))))
By
Amie Stuart, at 8:19 AM
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